12.21.09

It's getting harder and harder to write. I'm so wiped at the end of every day. You're doing so much lately! You're pulling up on everything. Chairs, tables, toys that aren't made for pulling up on.

You're developing a horrible habit of trying to get places that I don't want you to go-like the end table between the couch and recliner. Why?? I think it's just to make me crazy.

You hate baby food meat but you've eaten sliced turkey for the last two days. You love it. I bought you some soy cheese. You hate that. I have no idea what I'm going to do with it. Maybe melt some on some noodles.

You are still getting up at about 4:30 every morning. I'm still not really happy with that. I don't really have a choice though.

I'll write more later, I'm beat!

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.13.09

You're eleven months old. Only one month away from your first birthday. I have to tell you, it's bittersweet. I never thought I'd have you. I'm so proud you're getting big but at the same time it's hard to have you needing me less and less.

You're beautiful and smart. You're so engaging. Even strangers fall in love with you. It's so beautiful to watch you grow. I'm excited but I want you to slow down so I don't miss a thing. Being a mommy is so full of opposites... wanting you to grow and learn and wishing it wasn't all happening so fast.

 You almost took a step today. You pulled up on the recliner and turned toward the coffee table. You let go and started to take a step. Lost your balance and ended up on your bottom. You were so close. I almost cried.

You're still having trouble with meat. I'm not quite sure what to do. No worries, we'll get it figured out.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.11.09

Ack. Sleep. Please.

You're either waking up at 1 am and not wanting to go back down or still getting up at 4:30. You seem to need less and less sleep. It's making me SO TIRED. I'm still hoping it's teething as the teeth on either side of your top fronts have yet to break through.

On a really exciting (and scary for me) note, you're now letting go when you pull up. It seemed to take you forever to learn how to crawl and now you're flying through the milestones!
I've got to go, it's bedtime!

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.08.09

It has been too long again since I've written. I'm so far behind posting all this on your blog.

You slept until 5:30 this morning. You woke up at 1 am for some reason though. Your Daddy gave you a bottle and you went right back down.

You gave your Daddy a black eye on Saturday. You two were playing and you accidentally kicked him in the eye. It's sort of funny but it really hurt him. Ouch!

You also learned to pull up this weekend. Now you're even letting go and standing on your own a bit. All in less than a week!

I promise I'll try to write more tomorrow.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.03.09

Having those two teeth through has helped your mood TONS! You were silly today. You laughed a lot at bedtime. You have such a great sense of humor!

Sleep... You woke up at 3:30 this morning losing your mind. I think your room is too cold. We're trying leaving your bedroom door open tonight to see if that helps. I'm really running out of ideas. If this doesn't have you sleeping later we're going back to a big portion of cereal at bedtime. That's all I know to do.

I love you so much. We're going backwards in terms of your sleep. It's hard for your Daddy and I. We're so tired. Please, please sleep tonight.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.02.09

We have teeth! Well, sort of... Your front two teeth have both broken through your gums. You were in a much better mood today.

We put you down at 7:30 last night, you slept until 4:50 this morning. So I guess we'll be moving your bedtime back to 8 or 8:30. I'm not particularly excited about this... but, it will allow you to be up for dinner with us It just totally gets rid of the hour or two of adult time your Daddy and I a day. Oh well, if it helps you sleep later in the morning, I guess it's worth it.

I can't believe you're almost 11 months old. You're getting so big. I'm excited for you but you're just growing up way too fast! You're crawling really well and starting to figure out pulling up. Wow.

I never thought I'd be here, married, a wonderful son... I have to tell you , I am the happiest I've ever been. It's spilling over into every part of my life, I even enjoy work more. Even as tired as I am sometimes, I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you so much it brings tears to my eyes. I really am the luckiest girl in the world.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

12.01.09

I wish these teeth would come in! Your poor gums look so bad! Your top left front tooth has broken through. The right one is starting to break the gum in one spot. The outside two... oh goodness, they look like a war zone. Poor thing... I'm hoping when those nasty things come through you'll sleep later in the mornings.

I'm a little frustrated with your Grandparents. There's a tiny possibility, and I mean tiny, that I could get a better job. If I did, I'd have to put you in daycare at least two days a week. The possibility is so small I shouldn't be upset. I just hoped I'd have more support... Eh, whatever. We'll figure it out if something happens. But if you know to wish for things, wish for this to happen for Mommy. It would mean so much to me, that the last 12 years of my life haven't been wasted, workwise.

That's all for tonight!

I love you Parker!

Mommy