6.02.09

Things semm to be changing every day with you! You're moving from 3-6 month clothes into 6 month outfits. You're only four and a half months old!

You're still not laughing a lot but you've discovered that you can squeal. You do it most for your Daddy. You're practicing using different tones and volumes with your voice too. You've also learned how to fake cough. It's cute.

You finally reached your foot today. You've been staring at your feet for weeks but you finally grabbed it today.

You've been sleeping through the night for the last two nights. I'm not thinking it will be the end of the night feedings but it's a nice break!

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.31.09

You're laughing more now... that's not saying you're laughing a lot, just more. We're still having problems with bedtime. I'm just trying to accept that you're going to cry but it's hard hearing you night after night.

You're eating lots of new foods- carrots, peas, bananas, and sweet potatoes. You're a great eater! :)

You stayed with your grandparents last night- you decided to be a night owl... up from 11 to 2 am! Good grief! You were a bit of a stinker to get down tonight but hopefully you're done waking up.

We met a new friend today! Jessica and her little boy, Finn. They're really nice and I hope to get to know them better!

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.28.09

I've learned that I should just accept that you'll cry when I put you down... It's working- you've only cried one of the last three nights.

You're four and a half months old now. You're learning to play with toys and you spend all day interacting with me. It's amazing to watch you grow.

I love you so much. I find myself tearful at the silliest things these days. Your smile alone makes me cry some days.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.26.09

It's nine pm and you're still asleep! I just accepted today that you were just going to cry and you didn't AT ALL!

Now that I've written this, you'll be up a hundred times tonight... :)

I hope so much that we've finally gotten this bedtime thing figured out.

You're laughing more often but not all the time yet... Hopefully that will happen in the coming days.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.22.09

There are no moments anymore that are truly mine... It's a hard thing to adjust to. When I think you're asleep and I can finally relax- you wake up and cry. It's constantly a battle, the sleeping. Still. A lot of days I'm at my wits end. I have sores on my hands from washing your bottles and bowls and spoons once, sometimes twice, a day. Sometimes I'm just tired.

I hope that this doesn't make me a bad mother... I hope it doesn't. I'm afraid to say it anywhere but here. I don't want people to think that I don't love you or that I don't love you enough. I love you so much it takes my breath away sometimes. But sometimes, I'm just tired. But more than that, I love you.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.21.09

We've had your new bedtime routine for almost three weeks... In some ways I feel like it isn't working. It makes me feel like a bad mother. Like I'm not doing something right. You cry for 20 minutes or more almost every night. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. It's really bothering me. I wish I could fix it.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

5.20.09

There are days that I wish you knew how to talk already. Today is one of them. You were SO fussy this afternoon! I put you in bed at six you were so upset! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.

I love you Parker!
Mommy