Tuesday, January 19, 2010


You took your first step tonight! It was from the coffee table to me! I'm so excited! And scared, when you figure out you can do this all the time there will be no stopping you!

I told you last night we'd talk about Christmas... You had a huge one, tons of toys from your Aunt, Grandparents, and Great Grandparents. We did it all on Christmas Eve this year. Next year we'll do Christmas Eve and then Christmas morning separate. You, as usual, were awesome.

We spent the morning at the hotel, visiting friends and taking pictures and then went to your Grandparent's in the evening.

I love you so much. I'm so proud of you.

I love you Parker!


I remember exactly where I was this time last year... here, in bed. You were growing like a weed in my belly. I was so big and so uncomfortable. I'm so glad to have you here and healthy and safe. There's a part of me that really misses being pregnant with you. I never really let myself believe that you'd actually be here. I was so unhappy during my pregnancy with you. I felt like every day I dared you to live. And you were determined to be with me. I wish I'd taken more time to enjoy you. I remember feeling you move inside me, it was absolutely the most beautiful feeling I'd ever felt. I miss it SO MUCH.  If I could keep you safe inside me until you were grown... But you were grown, as grown as you could get inside me.

This time next year I want to be starting the journey all over again. I hope we'll be able to be there.

I meant to talk about your Christmas in this entry. Perhaps I'll talk about it tomorrow.

 I love you Parker!