4.27.09

It's definite, you're a talker... It is probably the most adorable thing I've ever seen! You've really found your voice!

You're not reaching as much as you were but I think that it's because you chose to talk first. You're getting so big. You're in 3-6 month clothes and your jammies are 6-9 month!

We're still working on your sleep. You pretty much refuse to nap, which is not good. You need to sleep so you can grow strong and big! We're working on some sleep-training things- probably things you'll remember- our word for bedtime or naptime is 'sleepy time' and I just started giving you a lovey called a snoedel (pronounced snoodle)- I'm hoping that 'noodle' stays with you for a long time to help you sleep. This weekend we're putting you back in your bed... I'm still a little upset with Daddy for bringing you back in here with us. But I'm also kind of glad, I know that you're safe with us.

This being a Mommy stuff is hard, trying to let you grow up and do things (like sleeping away from me) and watching you grow- It's all so amazing. It makes me both realize how crucial my decisions are and at the same time I realize not to sweat the small stuff...

I'm as new at this as you are. I know we'll get it all figured out. For right now, I'm just glad I get to be your Mommy.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

4.23.09

Sorry it's been so long since I've written. Things have been a little hairy with you lately. You're still not napping like you should and now you're back in our bed, not sleeping through the night. As soon as I can get your Daddy to read some stuff we're going to try some new things to help you sleep. Lets all hope they work, there's too many people in our bed!

You really started reaching for things today and Mom tells me you've been talking up a storm! I hate that I have to work and leave you like I do but at least you're with your Grandmama. She loves you at least as much as I do, if not more...

This weekend it's going to be just the two of us, Daddy is taking Stella (my dog) to live with your Grandpa Billy, that way I can focus just on you with no distractions.

That's all for today.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

4.18.09

4.13- Three months, moved to size two diaper
4.16- First laugh, at Mom & Dad's

4.12.09

I can't believe that tomorrow you'll be three months old. I know that I write that I can't believe this or that a lot. It's just crazy that you're changing and growing so much!

I think I've figured out the problens we've been having... I railed against 'scheduling' you from the moment you were born. It worked until now, I realized now that you're a little older you need a schedule. I also realized that you have sort of been running the show. Of course right now it's all about what you need or want but I wasn't giving you any structure. It really should have come to me before now, I need structure, why wouldn't you? Silly me.

So, I'm enforcing naptime which really seems to be helping. I'm putting you in your swing between eight and nine am and then again between two and three in the afternoon. Mow ew just have to get Daddy to stop putting you back in our bed at night.

He's really driving me crazy with that. He puts you in our bed then complains you won't sleep in yours. Good grief.

You're sleeping now so I should really get up and get some housework done...

I love you Parker!
Mommy

4.09.09

I can't believe that you're almost three months old. It's all going by so fast...

You slept all night last night, even if it was in our bed. Now, we have to work on getting you to do it in your bed.

Speaking of your bed, we've got to get you to take your naps in there... We have to get you to take naps period. I had no idea that a baby as young as you could fight sleep so. Trust me, in a couple of years, you're going to be begging for naps.

I'm afraid that it's going to be a process where there are a lot of tears shed, by both you and me.

We'll get it figured out though. I'm sure of it... I just hope I don't end up having to eat those words.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

4.06.09ave to

We've had some rough days lately. You've been crying a lot during the day. I can't figure out what's wrong. I promise I'm going to do everything to make you better. I just have to figure out what's wrong.

I love you Parker!
Mommy

4.03.09

You're getting so big it's hard to remember how tiny you were when you were born. I think you're over 14 pounds now which doesn't seem like a lot until you think about the fact you were only 7.7 1/2 when you were born.

So much has happened since I wrote last, we had your easter pictures made, we've been through two really bad storms...

I have to write this down so I don't ever forget it. It was one of those moments that made me absolutely positive that you were meant to be my little boy- It was during our first bad storm together, the weather man was calling for tornadoes which absolutely terrify me. I was walking around carrying you because I was too nervous to sit down. I was making you nervous too. I started to sing the sound I always sang to you while I was carrying you- 'Heavenly Day' and I sat down to sing to you. All of the sudden your eyes lit up as if to say, 'I know this song Mommy!' and you started to hum. It was amazing. I felt, at that moment, that you are my purpose in life. That I was created to be your Mother. I hope we never lose what we have right now. It's so pure and beautiful and easy. I love you more than I ever thought I could love and you let me love you, you love me in return.

No matter how I piss you off when you're older, know that I love you every moment of every day more than I could even begin to explain in these pages.

I love you Parker!
Mommy